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Day + 35 <3

It’s been a while!

So much has been going on!

On August 14th, we (my youngest two and I) took Shyanna to college up in Chadron, Nebraska. That drive takes me five hours. It was not easy because I love each of my girls so much and enjoy having them around as much as possible, but I KNEW college life was going to be just what this one needed at this point. She is mature for her age, knows what she wants, is very focused and really loves to learn. Campus life seems to suit her just fine! It’s exciting, too, because she is achieving her dreams and also playing college basketball (something she has wanted since kindergarten). She told me recently that she has officially achieved all the goals she had and so now is the perfect time for her to make some new ones and aim to achieve them as well.


Monday, August 18th, our oldest daughter and I BOTH started college. My college this semester is a full-time on line load and I am enjoying it immensely. She is enjoying the freedom that comes with less class time and more time getting in the gym with other players who love the game as much as she does!

Tuesday, August 19th, the younger three started school. It’s hard for me to imagine the life they continue to lead with me only being home part-time and their dad living in an apartment in a different town, but they have been getting through this and are doing well. I am proud of them.


So, continued prayer for our girls and all the transitions they continue to face and live through….

BUT, we are more hopeful than ever that things will be more back to normal sooner than later. Mark’s ANC has been up over 4000 for about a week. That’s normal levels, folks. The virus he had flare up CMV, was put back in check very quickly and he has had absolutely NO other issues. THANK GOD! And thank YOU, for your prayers! He has been on minimal medications post transplant and has been doing SUPER! We are all hoping that his time having to stay right by the hospital can be cut short if this continues!

This has been a long four months and we are still quite amazed that people haven’t just forgotten about us! One thing that is certain is that this journey has really helped to show us the depth and love of many people we have in our lives, it has shown us some wonderful friends and family that we really didn’t know we had until this happened and it has shown us that there are some we thought we had a closer relationship with, that we just don’t- and that’s ok. 🙂


I am excited to finish up the course and move on loving and living life with those that have made it obvious where we all stand in a positive way!

It’s funny, but the older I get, the more I realize that life is full of people and the best relationships to have are the ones that aren’t forced, but happen naturally. The people I want to be around are those who love fully and deeply and have compassion and a desire to encourage others and  live positively.

Although it’s been difficult, this journey has also brought our family closer and that is a beautiful thing! It has given me a nostalgic feeling hearing from aunts and uncles and cousins that I don’t normally hear from who have realized that nothing substitutes for family when you go through something major. Of course, our parents and siblings have been right by our side even though they are over a thousand miles away and that means the world as well….

So, if you are still praying, please pray that all this goodness continues and that his Bone Marrow Biopsy tomorrow comes back leukemia-free and full of donor cells and DNA! 🙂






Be Still….



Well, I feel it is appropriate to share this today, given that Mark’s ANC levels went down a bit and so we sit here waiting… still.

Everyone who knows me, knows I am always into something. I am busy and I like it. Over the years, my busyness has become more focussed. I used to just be a “yes girl”. I actually couldn’t say no. But, I learned how to say no to some things to focus more on what I was passionate about. Mostly, my family, teens, and fitness.

It was a struggle for me over the first couple of weeks though, not being sick- feeling as healthy as I always do, but not DOING any of my usual stuff. I began to hear God telling me that none of that stuff mattered. What He was showing me was that what truly matters most in life is that I know I AM HIS and HE IS MINE. It made me cry. I asked Him about it. But, I need to be helping people. I need to be there for Mark and my kids. I felt him saying “You need to just be.” Just be.


That’s what I have been doing. I am just here at the hospital with Mark or just home with my kids. Or where ever I am…. but really, that’s all I am right now. Is being. Being still. Waiting. Being His and letting Him be mine.

People have asked me if it’s been hard for me accepting help from others since I am so used to usually BEING the help and I have to say… It has been easy. I know we need help. I know there is no way I can do this alone. I know my best option is to be still and know….. Know that we need the help. Know God is with us. Know that people are loving on us, like we love to love on others. Know that really this is all we can do…. BE STILL.


Today, Mark woke up to some news that was not even close to being what we were hoping for. His ANC levels dropped some. Discouraging. Graduation is now in 5 days for our daughter, Shyanna and he was wanting to be home in two days. This HAS to be much harder on him than any of us. He is stuck in virtually the same surroundings day in and day out – been a day over a month now since he was admitted. This news today was enough to make him say to me, “You might as well go home. This is not going to be a good day.” But, you know what? I’m staying. I have learned from my friends through this time more than ever- that having someone there to give you a little “normal”- a little break from the new normal, some laughs, take your mind to another area of life- even if just for a short time during this time- can make a world of difference! I have stayed awake all night with hurting people before…. staying here with him now is really no different. It’s what you do when you love and care about someone.


My prayer is that Mark and my girls will have this same conversation with God. (Or maybe they already have.) It’s easier to accept the waiting and the uncertainty and the lack of answers and all of this really when I know my job is that simple…. BE STILL and KNOW that HE is GOD. I am His and He is Mine.

I hope you know that, too. <3


PS- Pictures here are from a fire some of my best girlfriends and I sat around one night this week. Chairs and writing on bottom of one are fitting as one of my best friends, Kathy, came to stay with us and she has been helping in any way she can- she took things off our “before graduation do to list” including covering our chairs. She wrote scriptures on each one…. And, finally, Kathy went decoration shopping with Shyanna and I. It was the most laughter I had had since all of this came about. I am eternally grateful for so much love and support. That’s the kind of support I want to be for my husband and kids right now, too.